Being the only single child, when Mom started having severe health issues 5 years ago, i thought it best that I move in with her. At that time i had no idea what i was in for. As Mom's health declines and the dementia progresses it has become a roller coaster both physically and emotionally.
It is heart breaking to see Mom " lose" a little bit more of herself every day now. Her body and mind slowly slipping away. I see how lonely, scary and frustrating her life has become.
The stress of daily up's and down's have taken a tole on my own health. There are day's when i feel like i will go before her. I have day's when i am so depressed i wish i could stay locked up in my room and hide. But i can't because i love her and she need's me. I will keep doing this for as long as i am able.
I am so thankful for my caregiver group. Without their help and support, i don't believe i would have been able to continue to care for Mom. Also my oldest son who is there for me and Mom on a daily basis. My oldest daughter who is just a phone call away who will spend hours listening and my youngest daughter, also a phone call away, who helps me understand the results of medical tests and medications. To Kathy who has given so much of herself to help us all. God Bless!!!